Manic Depression.

Last night I was supposed to go to a party, a really good party, with people I haven't seen in a while. I didn't go. I stayed home and watched TV and slept. I acted like I was sick when I wasn't. I just didn't feel like partying 2 nights in a row. And I am kind of depressed that I have nothing constructive to do. I know it's silly. I have just been eating a lot and being lazy. This has to stop. Ugh I am grossing myself out.